I am afraid of not writing. I feel that if I stop writing, things won’t work out for me the way I intended them to be. That is the thing I want to have the most consistency in. Your identity is formed mostly on what you are doing with your time, and I simply feel the need to have more time invested into writing, until it completely forms my identity. To that extent that even if I stopped writing altogether, I could still think, feel and act based on that identity, on that idea of who I really am.